Short Comings
She noticed me first. I was stocking shelves and caught her looking at me. I think she’s cute and apparently she has some kind of interest in my appearance. I don’t know anyone yet. I don’t know anything about this new situation. This new job, new apartment, new city, new life. So it takes time to get to know her better. Months in fact. We exchange glances every chance we get, but never say a word. I don’t see her at work for several weeks and I’m beginning to think she doesn’t work here anymore.
The next time I see her I’m leaving work as she’s coming in.
With great anticipation in my inflection, I manage, “I haven’t seen you in a while.”
“Yeah, I’ve been busy with school.” She says, plainly.
“Oh, cool. Where do you go to school?”
“BC.”
“Nice. Well, it’s good to see you again.” I start to walk away, then turn back to her.
“Hey, what’s your name, by the way?”
“Aria”
“I’m Dane, nice to meet you officially.” Officially? So stupid.
The encounter is uneventful except for the fact that we have spoken and acknowledged each other.
I don’t speak much. Especially with people—with women that I like. I suppose it’s nerves, but I concluded once that it’s the fact that all I can think about when I’m near them is how much I want to ask them out. But I never think it’s the right moment, so it never is. Then they just drift farther and farther away while my heart and emotions reach out more and get stronger but only from the inside. It seems like no matter what, a girl and situation like this is always appearing in my life. She happens to be the first in a while. Strange.
We rarely talked after that. She’s in Thailand now. I have her email address.